if you wanna know some real honesty, this post is absolutely full of it… queue the vulnerability!!! please, be my guest and read on ♥
some time ago… probably about a month or so… my sister-in-law challenged me to choose my top 10 photos of 2018. being a naturally harsh critic of myself, i thought “ha…. i don’t love any of my work that much…” i’m absolutely notorious for getting caught up in the comparison game. it’s a terrible tendency of mine. i mean, i absolutely LOVE moments when i capture them. i love experiencing moments and how they make me feel and then imagining how they must make the couples feel – if i’m tearing up, but i’m just an innocent bystander with a camera in my hand, what must it feel like to be in that moment?? it really is incredible – it’s a privilege to capture these types of moments.
then the editing begins and my instagram feed fills up with colleagues who also capture moments and i’m like, “shoot…. i wish i would have done better…” *mope, mope, mope*
BUT THEN!!!!! i’m moving along in my editing, after feeling like i don’t quite measure up and BAM!!! it hits me like a ton of bricks. it goes something like this: *scroll, edit, scroll, scroll, edit, edit some more, scroll* LIGHTBULB!!!!!! and i look at the collection of images i’m creating and fall in love with them all over again. it’s somewhat of a strange experience because i’m usually alone in my office when i experience this love fest, and it’s always a love fest that involves gushing over other people’s love, but it is COMPLETELY normal for us photog folks. (…right…? guys…? back me up on this….?) and it gives me life. and it helps me understand why i shoot photography in the first place. and it makes me realize that it’s okay that my vision and my eye are maybe different than that of others. it’s uniquely mine. and it’s how my brain works. and it’s how i was created. and it can never be taken away from me – i get to see things in this way for as long as i live (or until i go blind) and THAT, my friends, is a beautiful thing.
so, i won’t ramble on and on, i promise. one more thing though – to all the couples represented in this gallery – thank you, from the bottom of my heart, for giving breath and life to my wedding photography dream. it was my honor to capture your special days this past year, and i wish you nothing but years and years of happiness and more love than you ever imagined. i also would be just as honored to capture every step of your journey as a family if you’d have me. i love your love so far, and i would LOVE to continue to watch it grow.
enjoy this little compilation that really is the tip of the iceberg of my favorites from 2018 – the limit was supposed to be 10…. i just couldn’t do it!!! but hopefully you don’t mind.